You serve as my first, sadly we didn’t meant to last
Coz I didn’t see a future, so you became my past.
We broke each other hearts and we torn apart
I know it hurts; I’m the one to blame from the start.
I see the pain in your eyes, but promptly just ignore
Like a footprints that drifted by the water in the shore
Honestly, I still can’t forgive myself for what I’ve done
For a moment I asked myself ” should I reach out”?
Coz, I was wondering how have you been?
Is it true that your happy and inlove again?
Guess what , I miss you and your presence
Think of you every now and then, and it’s insane.
I never intend to stay in your life for awhile
But due to my overthinking we drifted further mile
Maybe if I only trust you and fought a bit longer
Right now, we are still be together….
“I’m Lost and Forgotten”
Unsettled thoughts and hopes that shattered in pieces
Cede me a familiar grief and pain inside my chest.
Deafening silence makes my tears clouded my visions,
Heart in rage, when you palter my feelings and emotions.
Lurking in the darkness and solitude of melancholy
Made me realize that, I’m nothing but a faded memory.
Promises are just an empty words; Rays of hope is gone
“Relationship failed”, another insane insult that I’ve done.
Now that I’m fed up with sufferings and miserable pain
I feel so empty and lost like a puppy with nothing to gain.
The road that I paced cede me to much agony to bear
And I accepted that I’m gonna be a lonely solitaire.
Graveyard
The wind is howling as we enter the dark cemetery
Tomb that scatter cede me a feeling of being edgy
As we walked continuously, there’s a crow that I see
Standing above the cross looking at me intently
At that moment, something catches up my attention
A grave that is far behind form other pantheons
Whereat moon’s bright light shining on its headstone
Out of curiosity, I pace closer to the tomb alone
It was seemingly year’s untouched and covered with dust
Flower are wither while the candles that never last
So I decided to lit a candles and offer a little prayer
Because I feel sad as well as pity to the soul of an owner
Meanwhile, as I look the headstone it takes me aback
That makes me cuss and standing frozen in shock
I felt so numb then my limbs became weak
Hoping the name written in the headstone is just a trick
My tears are flowing then I kneel at the tomb suddenly
And began to sob endlessly and uncontrollably
Reading the writings who rested in this cold grave
Is not a stranger instead it’s my name that engraves.
“Drowning in Pain”
It’s been months that we lost our communication
Until now, I’m still struggling on how to move on
I was trapped in my own myriads of emotions
As I yearn for your love, warthm and attention.
Devoured by darkness and deprived of happiness
As well as caressed by unbearable hurt of loneliness
I turn out into a fallen soul of forsaken and hopelessness
The reason why I’m drowning in pain and sadness.
Unwanted and unloved is worse than being alone
Like a lost sheep, I’m broken that no one to hold on
Everytime my friends cede me an advice on moving on
Still, I’m bound to the memories of my dear moon.
A Canvas of suffering is written in my misty eyes
Even though I try to hide the pain I felt that time
Your last message of saying goodbye makes me cry
And I felt sorry for my family for lying that I’m fine.
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